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Hari ini, 22 december 2018, for the first time in my life, I feel hopeless and dont know what to do. One of my bestfriend, Atikah, just 'officially' broke our friendship without saying why.

Mija ada ramai kawan kat uitm palam tu since i was quite active in kor, joined events and programs. Mija rapat dengan Ika and Maizatul more than anyone in uitm, more than my classmates. But I have been stickin to these two since i joining Komander Kesatria. Kami bertiga memang mana-mana pergi bersama, makan sama, weekend jalan sesama. Everywhere, everytime together. Kami Trio MiM which stand for Mija, Ika, Mai.

and suddenly ika disappeared without knowing why right after we finish our degree. 

Mija dengan Ika grad saing, but Mai ada lg setahun sebab dy kos accountancy. Mija dengan ika abis internship around June, and focusing on VIVA on july, and then we all separated back to our hometown, Mai went to internship in Muar . At that time, nothing happen, until around October, ika gone completely off the radar.

mija ngn mai whatsapp ika, shes ignored us, but we thought it is normal sebab ika memang susah nak reply whatsapp sbb dia tak tengok fon or she just busy maybe. Dalam group kitorang bertiga pon yang bising mai dengan mija je, ika diam, tapi dia baca everything. 

Around the end of October, mija masuk dalam group bout this job fair kat Putrajaya. maklumlah, kami baru abis, tengah semangat nak cari keje, konvo pon belum hahahahaha. Tapi ika tak reply pon sampai lah hari jobfair tu, mija pergi ngan mai and kakak mai, dia sebaya mija, baru abis degree jugak. At that point, kitorang da perasan something is wrong but kitorang bior kan je la maybe dia busy or something.. 

kitorang keep whatsapp her but nothing.. sampai lah hujung november, Mai pm mija cakap ika buat instagram baru, yang lama deleted.. Kitorang shocked gila babeng ar sbb dia tak cakap pon sedangkan kitorang bestfriend kot. Masa tu mija terus cek fb dia, and guess what? deleted too. Kat instagram baru tu, dia active je post gambar dia yang latest. Then again, Mai dm dia kat instagram, kne ignored jugak 

And today, she left every single group whatsapp, group komander, event, class, everything..including group kami, MiM. 

Bila ika buat camtu, mija dengan mai rasa betul betul kecewa and terkilan gila. She left us in the dark, not knowing the reason of silence. Selama ni kami je ke yang rasa kita bestfriend while u only see us as nothing.. So all those moments that we spend together is nothing too? sedih siakkk

malam ni, mija dengan mai video call nangis sama sama. sebenarnya ape salah kitorang, why did she left, why shes ignored us, Sampai tahap ni, kitorang da takleh pikir positif dah.. Almost 3 years together, she left us after 5 months separated.

Kitorang banyak planning kot lepas grad. Memang happy gila time cite berangan.. nanti time mija ngn ika pre convo kat putrajaya, mai kena skip class sebab kena datang konvo kitorang, bawak bunga and coklat, jadi cameraman kitorang. Then nanti time Mai konvo lak, kitorang amik cuti, datang konvo mai, bawak bears adn ferero rocher. Pastu nanti kawen ika kat ganu jauh mana pon kena datang, mija dengan mai kat johor, ika kena datang.. Nak buat reunion tiap tahun pegi holiday sebab kitorang memang suka bejalan..banyak lagi wei planning kitorang..bile kitorang kenang balik, meleleh siak air mata..

Kitorang memang tak expect langsung yang friendship kitorang will end this easy and early.. baru berpisah 5 bulan da putus kawan.. belum konvo lagi weiiii!!!! dissappinted gilaaa!!! serius mija cakap, mija tak rasa marah langsung, jauh lagi nak benci..tapi mija rasa kecewa gila babi jek sebab she treated us like we are nothing in her life. kitorang je yang beriya. tak sangka wei macam ni ending dia..

mija pernah cakap dengan mai masa awal2 ika off from radar, i said jangan2 nanti masa konvo, dia nampak kita buat tak kenal je. mai kate impossible la takkan dia nak buat camtu.. well it seems that it will be exactly like i said..

im still crying while writing this thooo...😭😭😭

well then..i guess this is part of life and this is what will shape who we are in the future. 

To ika.. i really hope that you can explain what happen to us. Salah kami ke? or something happen to u that u cant talk bout? anyhow i hope u re ok 

i really really really really miss us

i really really really really miss MiM

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